For a moment,
For, at least, this moment,
I want us to rest in the wells that our people dug with trembling hands and filled with countless tears. Whether these hands tremble from fear, anger or crippling sorrow. Whether these tears pour from sadness, hopelessness, or rage.
For a moment
For, at least, THIS very moment
I want us to rest.
Because knocking at the door of each of our hearts, that unrelenting beat within our chests is our warrior spirit. And when we open that door, we must give an answer that is not tired, nor is it broken but it is ready: arrows drawn, swords sharpened, bodies tuned, minds vigilant. Warriors. People of the sun. Marching forward, defending our children, honoring our ancestors, blessing the harvest nourished from generations of innocent blood and unemancipated sweat. A harvest that we now declare as free from strange lands where we were buried forgetting that we are seeds. It is time to grow. To choke out the weeds of death and exploitation and dismantle the master’s house while singing redemption songs. Remembering that WE are the writers of every holy book. This pen is a sword, unsheathed and thirsty: drinking from the wells that my people have cried. Awakened, a quill that can not die. A will, quilted together by stories of silenced leaders that said “no” to the savagery of white supremacy and the uncivilized tactics of colonialism.
Those that did not take the crumbs that fell from the master’s table, denouncing the false narrative that there is not enough for all of us to eat. Those that declared no one a master, because you can’t trust anyone that needs slaves to be free.
So relinquish them of their power and reclaim your own. Remembering we are the saviors of every holy book, the anointed ones, with skin like bronze and hair like wool. Greater works shall WE do.
So let us steady our trembling hands and embrace the creators that we are destined to be. A just world is on the horizon but only if we build it there and only if we build it where liberation is not up for conversation and self-determination is a right that we will no longer beg for.
We will bury those that we’ve lost along the way, remembering that they are seeds. Let us watch their purpose grow in us and continue to fulfill their wildest dreams.
Yes, we have work to do and a future to unapologetically defend. But, for a moment.
For at least, this very moment, my people, I want you, to rest.
I am determined to move into our collective future creating a better reality along the way. I recognize, fully, how that must begin with me. I can’t change anything around me until I have changed. Otherwise, I will perpetuate what is familiar and can too easily become what I hate. So, there have been times throughout these recent months, where I found myself in an isolation that I forged out of a revolutionary love for me. It was a love that I knew was there, but, damn, it was hard to find.
The embarrassing reality is, I didn’t always know that it was worth finding and I didn’t always know that I was worth fighting for. I thought my blackness was a curse. I thought my queerness was a curse. I thought death was my only recourse. I thought that hell was my only destiny. I believed all of the lies taught to me; I perpetuated those lies. I believed that anything brought upon me, I always brought upon myself. I projected that belief, judging beautiful people along the way. I forgot what was holy. But then I met myself, truly. I met people that didn’t want me to change. I met safety. I met home. I met rest. Denver was that for me. This community gave that to me…so every day, I find myself determined to move into our collective future, creating a better reality every step of the way. I will not stand by as the people I love are abused by negligence and greed. I only learned to fight because I grew to love. Denver did that to me, this community did that to me…and, for that, I am forever grateful.
This could be taboo and ruffle a lot of feathers, but I am grateful for this time of COVID-19. We needed a visual pandemic that would hit home for everyone in order to address the preexisting pandemics this country and the world faces — racism, homophobia, transphobia and classism. During this time of COVID the nation had no choice but to face the disconnected and underlining struggles that large groups of marginalized people face every day; from racial divide to economic and social class as well. I’ve watched areas in various cities (including Denver) with a high concentration of Black, Latinos and Indigenous people go without testing centers, public transportation, and reliable food/grocery delivery services. I’ve watched the medical aid and health care crumbling, exposing our weaknesses and cracked system.
The need to be seen as an ally at any cost is almost cringing when you can’t feel the true intent and we often ask ourselves: “Do you really care or is this just another hashtag moment to get your viewers and follow count up?”
Lives are still being treated carelessly, movements overshadowed by “insta fame,” and our Black voices still falling on tone-deaf ears. COVID-19 of 2020 will never be forgotten, I just hope this time they get it right in the history books. Remember that this is not just a moment in time, but a marathon and an uphill battle that requires all hands on deck.
“My humanity is bound up in yours, for we can only be human together.” —Desmond Tutu